My fallout ( wrap up)

Is there a limit on how many words can be used while making a post? After writing a lot, it wouldn't let me get past one word. But yeah. Back on topic.  Just to end the last post. It's all over now. I want to make it somewhere, I want to...

My fallout

Since the whole "What's changed" post things have risen and cracked. I say cracked because due to home life, social life, relationship life, losing my baby, I fell into a mild drug addiction. I was into meth for four months on and off. I've been...

Whats changed?

What in the actual fuck. Alright. It all goes back to about a month ago... maybe longer. Two to three weeks after Christmas. Derrick was still set on moving back to Colorado, and his roomate took off back to California. Around that time,...

Sunday

Sunday was an adventure. I felt like I could be myself around Derrick. I was singing, singing with him, joking with him, being all lovey and hyper, and being more open with him. I spent the night with him as well, it was so amazing to be held...

What should I believe?

You know me, Old, damn problematic Chey. Emotional rollercoaster ride, with trust issues sparking on the side. So, as I was just about to crack myself open and be the lover I should be, I finally thought I could trust Derrick. I still have...

Not as bad as I thought.

My last post... oh man was I tripping for nothing. So Derrick's bestfriend is actually a bestfriend and nothing more. She's a bit... loud... and bit of a social butterfly, but that's fine. She actually supports our relationship, and is cow...

I stay away

Pregnancy is slowly wearing me down. I've spent my four days off work sleeping and eating everything and becoming digusted with what used to be my favorite foods. Had some waffles this morning, and ended up wasting those becuase they tasted too...

Oh no...

I never thought I'd see the day so soon... I'm pregnant... Almost eighteen years old and pregnant... Parents have no idea... But friends know, and people I work with do. I took four pregnant tests, the first one was a name brand known as...

What happened the last 4-5 months.

I believe it's been since May since I posted, I've been busy and very distracted since then. I'm done with the whole bullshit with my ex. I'm so far over it all. I lost my mind over him very badly and lost myself. I got rid of that man back...

Hell and Back

Still having communication problems with the loved one. I try my best to stay occupied.... I need a fucking hobby. I guess that trip to Tunisia with mom in April won't hurt none.  He really doesn't want me to go because it's another country,...

A lot.

Dad's beig a selfish prick as always. He's trying to force us to move to get cheaper rent [ We're pretty wealthy,he's just all about money and acts like we're poor.] He wanted to move somewhere out of town. Like Florence or Coos Bay. Both...

A lot has happened.

I haven't been active for about a month now. Maybe longer than that... my apologies. So my dad decided to take my lap top and phone away just to keep me away from my boyfriend. About two weeks into being phoneless, I got my phone back, and just now...

Notice.

The "Well Damn" post was partcially a misunderstanding. The whole thing where he felt like I didn't apprciate him when he bought me things, and didn't give enough in return. The whole thing about his sensitivity, was the main problem and only...

Well damn.

I could've sworn it was part of the male role to want to do things for the one they love or are interested in. Guess not every male isn't like that. So this morning, I go on my facebook and come to find Hayden was messaging this robot thing I...

Almost got kicked out again.

Well today went to shit before it even began for me. It as mostly my fault anyways. I guess... I almost got kicked out again. Second time! And I'm only sixteen. If I were seriously to get kicked out, I'd have a place to go, and I'd have to be...

Crazy stuff.

Ahh. Another day where I get to sit and watch the sun and it's ways around this town until it's sun down. I hope Hayden comes over after work. I feel kind of shitty for not getting back to him soon enough when he messaged me this morning. I...